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| User: | vikkilynn (75431)  Non Compos Mentis
The Notorious VIK-- An Animated Tool |
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| E-mail: | vikkilynn2002@yahoo.com | ||||
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| AOL IM: |  vikkilynn2002 (Add Buddy, Send Message) | ||||
| Bio: |  ............ ♥ my lil' lake ♥ ............ * * * * * ♥ * * * * * ............ ♥ my lil' car ♥ ............ These bio things are dumb, but here goes: I'm a college graduate- University of Wisconsin. I work full time in project management in the healthcare field.** I am single and anti-social. My college major (Political Science) was apparently useless. I think about Grad school or Law school but then my brain gets tired out and mushy so I decide to think about something less strenuous. This started out (in 2001) as my "diet" journal. I lost just under 120 pounds from fall 2001 until spring 2002. I did it mainly through starving myself, eating carb-free food, and throwing up practically everything I ate. REAL healthy, huh? I ended up going through inpatient treatment for bulimia at Waukesha Memorial Hospital in June 2002, followed by their PHP and IOP programs later that summer. Bottom line: I lost the weight. I was sick. I went through treatment. I gained all the weight back. ALL OF IT. My journal (THANKFULLY!) became about much more than calories and fat grams somewhere along the line. I do still sometimes talk about dieting, weight, depression, etc, but I try to write about other things too to prove that I *am* a well-rounded person. (Wayyyyy TOO well-rounded: MOOOOOO!) See, this is me:  I go through phases where I'll change my hair color about as often as most people change their sheets. Or their socks. :) In recent memory it's been insane screaming red, grape jelly purple, cotton candy pink, blaze orange, and brown with blond I have a pretty good (although sometimes warped) sense of humor. Mainly I'm just a big goofy dork. I like to take pictures with my crappy 2.1 megapixel HP digi-cam. Or else I'll sometimes illustrate my entries with my own brand of sketches I like to call Vikki's Badly-Drawn Art... and then take pictures of them with my crappy 2.1 megapixel HP digi-cam, haha.  (From "The ER/Sunburn Incident, 2005") Ummm, what else? Oh, I did just recently go through another round of treatment. I suppose that's note-worthy, since I'm finally updating this profile for the first time in, oh, about 4 years. I went to Rogers Memorial Hospital for inpatient treatment of bulimia in October of 2006. I also went through detox for prescription drug dependence. This was a really rough time for me. Rock bottom = feeding tube + "the shakes." NOT FUN. I started PHP and then ended up being re-admitted as an inpatient until my funds ran out. Then I did a day program at St Elizabeth Hospital, which I recently repeated (March/April 2007) because I guess once just wasn't good enough! :) Most recently I was IP at Mercy Medical Center in Oshkosh, WI (September 2007) for medical stabilization, but I like to think of it more for an incredible ATTITUDE OVERHAUL. I think this just may have been "it." I think I learned and realized more during this one IP stay than I have in years of therapy and treatment. I think I had some major LIGHTBULB MOMENTS. But enough of all that treatment crapola. :P THERE IS MORE TO ME THAN MY EATING DISORDER! GET TO KNOW ME AND YOU'LL FIND THAT OUT! I used to write all of my entries as public, but I got over my bad exhibitionist self and now everything is friends-locked. Every once in a while I get tempted to go back and unlock some of the funny, silly, much-commented-upon stuff, as proof that HEY PEOPLE LIKE ME!!! <--- cuz I have a super hard time believing it and so I sometimes sorta kinda feel the need to overcompensate, haha... but then I remember the bad times, the getting burned times, and realize how much safer it is to stay safely locked away, with the key hidden between my ample breasteses. HA! If you'd like me to add you as a friend, just comment on my one and only public post and let me know. TELL ME WHERE I KNOW YOU FROM OR HOW YOU FOUND ME, PLEASE. I'm not paranoid, just careful.  I moderate/maintain 2 eating disorder communities here on LJ: ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} eatingdisorders ed_recovery The ed_recovery co-moderator is ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} likeshesaid. She's wonderful and inspiring. :) I love that I can depend on her and trust her completely with all aspects of the community. Up until recently the third co-mod was ladyoracle and she did a tremendous job as well; thank you Cindy! This is an amazing community of about 2000 members (at last count) and it's very close to my heart and soul. I also keep an eye out for eatingdisorders, although since it's an unmoderated community, it basically runs itself. I just approve membership. Not quite sure what's in store for this little community. It's been semi-dead for AGES now... literally years... but it's part of my LJ history and I would never dream of pulling the plug on it, regardless of how inactive it is. (Incidentally, in case anyone was wondering, I inherited both communities from katyater several years ago. I did not create either comm.) Even though I'm majorly anti-social and shy and embarrassed to be such a fatty, these are the LJ'ers I've met so far: crysleaelonnasandwaterandsun, aka leelix_tykeyanamoriartyvioletstormiridescencerunfastwglurassseamonkeyforeverxbroken and already knew (and loved!) my college buddy jackra  ** As of February 2007, I left my job on short term medical leave and that morphed into long term disability, which, as of this writing (September 2007), I am still on. I am anxious to return to work in some capacity very soon. My brain is turning to mush and my already-stunted people skills are shrinking fast! Some of my Favorite Quotes: "The soul must long for God in order to be set aflame by God’s love; but if the soul cannot yet feel this longing, then it must long for the longing. To long for the longing is also from God." ~ Meister Eckhart "Discouragement is a negative emotion with more than one trick up its dark sleeve. It tricks you into mentally or emotionally dwelling in the very place you want to leave." ~ Guy Finley "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world." ~ Marianne Williamson "The real damage is done by those millions who want to "survive." The honest men who just want to be left in peace. Those who don’t want their little lives disturbed by anything bigger than themselves. Those with no sides and no causes. Those who won’t take measure of their own strength, for fear of antagonizing their own weakness. Those who don’t like to make waves-or enemies... Those who live small and die small. It’s the reductionist approach to life: if you keep it small, you’ll keep it under control. If you don’t make any noise, the bogeyman won’t find you. But it’s all an illusion, because they die too, those people who roll up their spirits into tiny little balls so as to be safe. Safe?! From what? Life is always on the edge of death; narrow streets lead to the same place as wide avenues, and a little candle burns itself out just like a flaming torch does. I choose my own way to burn." ~ Sophie Scholl "We kill at every step, not only in wars, riots, and executions. We kill when we close our eyes to poverty, suffering, and shame. In the same way all disrespect for life, all hard heartedness, all indifference, all contempt is nothing else than killing. Life is waiting everywhere, the future is flowering everywhere, but we only see a small part of it and step on much of it with our feet." ~ Hermann Hesse "Let your life be an adventure. Be a life explorer. When failure happens, strength, gratitude, appreciation, renewed resolve, and character can spring up. People who aim high can fall far, but God will either catch you on the way down or patch you up when you hit bottom--and you'll be a better life explorer. What would you do differently tomorrow if fear of the unknown was not an issue?" ~ David Jeremiah "The happiness of most people we know is not ruined by great catastrophes or fatal errors, but by the repetition of slowly destructive little things." ~ Ernest Dimnet If you can walk, you can dance." ~ African proverb Disclaimer: My LiveJournal is my own. All content (including but not limited to my journal entries, drawings, digital pictures, creative writing, and icons), unless otherwise expressly noted, is my copyrighted property. But then, you knew that already, didn't you?? It's called the Digital Millennium Copyright Act (DMCA). © 2001-2008 Vikkilynn@LiveJournal | ||||
| Memories: | 82 entries | ||||
| Pictures: | fewer than 10 public | ||||
| Interests: | 149: ...bears with spunk, 24, aerobics, america's next top model, anorexia, aplastic anemia, ashi rice, ativan, atkins diet, basketball, being a dork, being a virgin, big brother, biking, blue drinks, bryan duncan, buffy the vampire slayer, bulimia, c.s. lewis, carnation instant breakfast plus, catcher in the rye, charles barkley, charmed, chinese food, christianity, clarinet, cognitive behavioral therapy, crown college, cutie-pie podiatrists, dave barry, days of our lives, dbt, depression, dialectical behavioral therapy, diet, diet coke with lime, diet creme soda, dieting, diurex, dr. foss, dr. phil, dreaming in french, dreams, eating disorders, edmund burke, endocrinology, ephedrine, er, eschatology, exercise, experimental treatment, fasting, felicity, fitness, fizzy pink champagne, food, frozen grapes, george clooney, goofing around, grammar, gymnastics, handwriting analysis, healthcare law, hebrew, heritage christian school, hiking, homicide, house, hunger point, hypothyroidism, jars of clay, jesus christ superstar, jevity, jillian medoff, john stockton, jose canseco, journalism, juice fasting, jury trials, kate moss, ketosis, law, law & order, law & order svu, les miserables, lifesize, lj addiction, losing weight, low carb, low carb diet, marya hornbacher, master cleanse, mental health parity, metal sky, middle child syndrome, mo rocca-resembling psychiatrist, nadia, neenah/menasha, new therapist judy, nip/tuck, nortriptyline, oci, oconomowoc, old testament history, pastor's kids, pink hair, pistachio pudding, political science, politics, profiler, project management, prozac, pt cruiser convertible, quantum leap, reading, real world, recovery, remington steele, reuben sandwiches, richard gere, ritalin, rogers memorial hospital, rousseau, sixpence none the richer, slacking off, southwest minnesota state university, speaking french, starting over, sunflowers, the real world, the shawshank redemption, the sound of music, the thorn birds, theology, third day, topamax, trazodone, trials, volkswagen bugs, walnut grove, wasted, waukesha memorial hospital, weight, weight loss, wellbutrin, william safire, working out, writing, xenadrine | ||||
| Schools: | Crown College - Saint Bonifacius, MN Heritage Christian School - Upper Campus - Milwaukee, WI Southwest Minnesota State University - Marshall, MN University of Wisconsin at Oshkosh - Oshkosh, WI | ||||
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